Friday, 1 June 2012

MY GIRL IN GREEN

it was a Sunday morning
a notepad and a pen in hand
i couldn't resist to walk down towards them
they are beautiful, bright and clean
every fibre rushes with green
those fields are a magic of nature
vibrant, colourful and sweet capture

no! those fields are not mine
nor do they belong to my ancestors
but  grandpa says they never had an owner

in the month of January and February                           
with lemony-vanilla fragrance
those fields bloom with winter iris aromatic 
white and lilac and deep blue
these winter flowers are multifarious
i often ask him
if he waters those fields 
or nourishes them with likable amore
his wrinkled face did only smile
his lethargic hands did only pat
his jaw with hardly any teeth noticeable
speaks:
" you are a small sapling that those plants lefts 
  whose seeds i had cultivated.
  those plants were sweet,gratifying and enchanting
  you are soft, youthful and enthralling
  darling! you are the only field i water
  baby! you are my winter iris. "
people in sixtys are arduous to be understood
but i swear for those winter iris 
their meaning is broad, deep and profound
yeah! i do not have my parents and he his children
but his and my relation is a bond more fragrant 
than these flowers sometimes dormant

drifting in these fields
is an enchantment to my soul 
i wear the transparent clothes of joy
the blood is purified with beauty
provided solace to heeding stallion
the vessels shout  with ecstasy

no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
every word i write
every thought i produce
reproduces my magnetism towards these fields                                                                                   
                                                                                    i write about chirping birds                                                      
a big group of white pigeons
they sit on my shoulders and behind winter iris 
to look more beautiful than a sun rising 
the birds sing, dance and flit
making rhythms with the music of my lips




in a group of those white birds
there is a bird with a peck black
its a bird that doesn't move in groups 
nor dances to rhythms of my flute
it flys on a music it creates of its own
it makes sound as if talking to a power divine 
i or you don't know

it seems that it is not a pigeon
but a creation of god
tied to him with smoke of love, passion and intensity
smoke that brings fragrance and rejuvenation
to an intoxicated blood flowing in veins
of a poet.. a lover..an orphan
oh! its an alter ego..

yeah! these souls are free to radiate energy                                 
more spiritful than those of dazzling flame
flame of blue with an envelope of red
on which she made food for me and my friends
those are the days when i returned home
from a school which was distant apart
then she went to that almighty heaven above
followed by his only beloved
and grandpa brought me to this small village
that have big fields to provide me deep solace

my grandpa is not less than an angel
singing sweet songs every night
that help me sleep when i cant 
because a sweet face of mother that is no more doesn't let me.
i saw her in books and so i left studies
our home echoed of her presence and so he brought me to this village
her Saree with purple frills still rests in that locker of our closet
i no more use closets to keep my clothes 
but tie them in a jute bag covered by leaves green and big
but, the pleasant songs of grandpa beats a music of zeal
shouts my soul with nourishment
when i can take a sleep at night to wake up the next morning
to write about the green colour of nature i love.

churns the music of a voice girlish
these ears are foaming and fermented
this is a voice to put me in rapture
her echoes are intoxicating rather
these eyes are searching for a glance or a glimpse
she is a fairy descended from heaven above or may be a princess


no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all i write about
writing about the beauty of rising sun                                    
the euphoria of ocean waves 
 waves producing colours vibrant and intense
loving the colours i see in a rainbow after shower
and those winter iris dancing.
and while i was penning down all these

" awww! these flowers are beautiful!
  i love all of them.
  and yeah, mama gonna them love them too
  she will look good if she gets one with her purple Saree
  and i am sure, i can take them 
  because that man is too sweet to 
  object me doing that. "


she wears a dress white in colours 
a dress for a  fashion of 70s
or a time that no one remembers
not you, i or we at least
her long gown is blending in dirt as it only belonged to it.
oh! even the  dirt on her white dress seems pure
pure with her purity..
this is the magic..of beauty..beauty of her innocence..
that only a pigeon with a black peck can see.
and her long hair are tied in a bun
this gives an impression that she intentionally did
she did this to prevent attention
silly she! a pigeon is a seeker of beauty
it knows where it emerges from
you are vibrating energy with a dazzling flame
dear! the much you try hiding the vibes you release 
the more lurks brightness with sharp intensity

yeah! you can take all of them
and do gift them to your mama 
do that! after all i can never do that
and yeah! i may talk to grandpa
after all, that man is so sweet to
object you doing that

it is said that good things doesn't lasts forever
and angels not always descend on earth 
don't know to what extent that's right
but
while i was preparing myself to speak all that
she had already disappeared

no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
and i pick my pen to write once again about those iris

when things went wrong
when my ears flute with words of loved ones gone
when my fingers cry for the gaps they have
and nobody to fill in
these fields came up to my rescue
in windy nights that were dark
these vibrating leaves made noise so loud
that under the sky with wide thunder
i never listened to sounds of gone loved ones
the fields have weeds so high that they cover me all over
and no gaps between these fingers or in heart with large void

" come dear grandson! its night
  you my catch cold instead.
  its chilly outside.
  come. i will make you sleep"

this night passes by
to bring morning fresh anew
and me here writing long
about my grandpa's fields i have always adored
mentioning about green
the tress big and canopy wide
she comes up again this time

she comes up again this time
with the same beauty, attire, innocence and magnetism divine
the only thing that changed
was her hands full of baskets
she plucks those flowers with excitement
happy, smiling and joyful
she looked more beautiful than those winter iris
dear nature! how can i write about you
dear stranger! why don't you let me to?

paper and pen lost their significance
a poet a writer became a lover
days past and so did months
my daily diary was left untouched

every time she came to those fields
she collected flowers with eyes bright and big
she bid a farewell to my grandpa
my grandpa : an honest chap
explaining that those fields are not his
but he does take care of them all times
she wished him thanks and so to me

trust me! that her twinkling eyes 
were only an illusion to beauty
because a sweet and pleasant voice she had
was a right expression for her beauty

" dear son! seeing you from long time
  you had not been writing these nights
  our mail box still has loving letters
  your readers are impatient for your work
  tell me, if you wanna join studies back
  we will go to that town left long back
  i have a friend promising and a family big and sweet
  they will look after you even when i am gone..."

" no grandpa! you are not going anywhere
  from me, this village and these fields
  you are the only one i love 
  and.."

" and? "
" that girl who comes to collect flowers daily
  doesn't let me to write for my readers."
" she is a sweet, poor and young lady.
  why don't you like her? "
" no grandpa! i like her a lot
  and that's why i cant write about things i do. "

grandpa in my life is truly an angel
or may be something more than that
if i ask from an angel for something, 
he may or may not...
but grandpa finds a solution to all problems
sain or unsaid..

she comes up next day 
with huge baskets once again
to collect those flowers that were never fresh
more than her smiling dimples ever wet

" thankyou for these Flowers. they are lovely."
" girl! have you ever read my writings, people say they like a few of them?"
" yeah! i have read all of them
  they were rich, meaningful and deep 
  only a soul feeling green could write it
  it had love, ecstasy and solace
  that only a nature lover could feel for green forests
  it feels that every grain of yours 
  has nature shouting with amour"
" what if i say that there exists a soul 
  whom i love more than green?
  it is a spirit that comes to my fields to collect flowers daily."

her eyes were sparkling
and cheeks pink
my grandpa was right in sixtys
i loved my parents and they left me
and so i loved green because it can never part me
a girl could be promising to me if i love her
the way i had been doing to green

now i move in those fields
and i see that girl in those fields
i write about that girl, the beauty, the charm
that looked more magnificent with a Saree in purple frills
and iris in her bun
she reads my books and i read mine
and i don't see any missing faces in the pages of rhyme



my mail box coming up with more letters                             
they love reading what i write 
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
she loves, caresses and adores me in  green
and so i do in green
after all she met me in those fields wide
truly, she is my girl
my girl in green.

: with love~~isha jain~~

Thursday, 31 May 2012

BRIGHTENING DARKNESS


silence could be sounded everywhere
and i had realised i was somewhere
it was dark and grey
trust me! nothing could be seen.... all was in vain !




i move my hands in and out
gave myself a few circles round and round
took a step further ahead
and had almost decided to take it back


when i saw a bright ray of light
coming towards me from my right
" whether shall i approach my right ?
  or right  is just not right ? "

a swap of limbs by degree 90
name of almighty
started stepping ahead
could not listen the footsteps i had

by now the ray of light
had become visibly bright
here started conflict of heart and mind
" it can be everything. "
" it will be nothing. "
" why dont you venture in ? "
" why not to escape out of it ? "
" complexity is magnetic......"
" but simplicity is  adorable. "

the signals were infuriated in nerves
just as a natural geyser is about to bring turbulence
" silly me !.."
dove and the olive branch
had started appearing hazy........


sounds like  a tower of babel....!!
" you ignored the ghoosh sound. "
" but what now !!"
"  you had already ventured into brightness..."
indeed! complexity is magnetic.. !!


" it is bright.. so .. bright..
  me out of darkness..."
there are roses, orchids and jasmine
green leaves are following the rhythm of happiness
finishes the disturbing silence.

" it is the first time
  taste sweetness
  smell happiness."
vision has brightness




close your eyes.
one
.
two
.
three
.
and four

open your eyes
too see darkness.. deep darkness
now its fear and horror
horny touch and ghostly voices
falls a sheet of darkness

that was a trap
to engulf the brightness of ours
not of ours ..but of millions..or even trillions..
that is why it is brightening.....
 a brightning darkness.....


author’s note:
i am feeling that i am moving towards light
but i am entering into a deep and dark tunnel.
as an author, a writer, a poet, a girl..lols..whatever you know me as…this is  one workpiece which is very close to my heart. “the brightening darkness” . the all meaning lies in the title. Darkness: evil, disgrace, negative, hovering, pessimism, haunting…! Brightening: happiness, cheer, joy, love, affection, amore, friendship, light, warmth. But, how could two co-exist? Simple. In life, something that appears magnetic and attractive, like a guy who is handsome and caressing, or a rose beautiful and fragrant, a friendship promising…. But later it is realised that something which appeared to be brightening was an envelope over the darkness it is made up of. The guy is a fraud, the rose pricks you the moment you hold it, the friend was fair-weather.
Friends! Face values are a trap, they are temporary, if you have to appreciate, start appreciating the beauty of heart. Permanent!
: with love~~isha jain~~

BECAUSE LIFE IS ABOUT MOVING ON

it is a  day to be called sunny..
but still there is  dark and deep..
i can see flowers
but they are not sweet !!
i can see bushes dense and lushy
but they are not green..

little girl has fallen down while running
it was the time when i got hurt on my knee
dad said "you are a brave girl, my child !"
mom said, " princess will be alright"
my eyes were showering ..
and i felt it was the saddest moment....
a moment that can never have a strong competitor

but, i can be wrong, so wrong..
i never knew .....
until this happened..

HEART- a small room for large wounds
no bad doctor to give me medicines                        
no bandages, no tears, no more blood to bleed
but what  crying is a small heart
a small room for large wounds

no dad to say that i am a brave girl
becaue he cant see my heart harboured
my heart harboured with tears 
that no friend can wipe for a dear
mom sees a smiling face 
and says that it resembles hers in childhood

i am walking on the path 
trampling over the leaves...
ohhh !! these thorns are painful.. so painful..
that i bleed, i weep, i cry aloud...

when it rains outside,
little children come out of their houses
they run, they shout, they play with fun and frolic
they fall , they get injured and cry with showering eyes..

their crying upsets everybody around them..
silly me! i smile on this..
because i know it doesnt hurt
what hurts when you have a heart
with millions of wounds not seen.

when it  rains, i thank him..                                                  
"him" is the almighty
because it rains when my eyes arent able to shed tears
he crys for me and supports me
and says "because life has to move on"
: with love~~isha jain~~

FOOTPRINTS


lost in a land of sand
i was walking here and there
besides there was a stream
with water gurgling and murmuring


i could see nobody anywhere
i could listen some sound nowhere
the silence sounded somewhat eerie
i was lost in solitude nearly

alas! i saw some footprints on sand
not of human or panther or creature living on land
i shouted if anybody was there
but heard no response from anywhere

suddenly, i felt a touch
shocked, bewildered, i was stunned
it was cute, little and fumbsy
yeah! it was genie.....


ah! i thought he would grant me wishes 3
but, he himself looked pale, sad and needy
i asked who you are
where do you belong from

the genie exclaimed (as expected) :
" i can fulfil your 3 wishes..... "

ah! that's great!
you are a creature
found by people
with handsome fate

but, tell me why are you sad?
why not happy........
for fulfilling desires
for fulfilling what we aspire....

"no. i am an evil.
 i am a disgrace.
 i am not meant for people
 with handsome fate."

"ah! how come you say that?
 if you fulfil any 3 wishes
 you can't be a disgrace
 i am lucky to have such a fate"

"stupid girl! get the meaning of life
 life is a path of thorns and pains
 there are hurdles to be crossed
 and stones to be pushed away."

widely opened was my mouth
soon you could see me dumbfound.
while i was making out 3 wishes
my fingers shaking and body trembling

within no time, the genie said :
" demand! demand what your 3 wishes are! "

his words were an order
asking me for 3 wishes
his eyes were a plea
requesting me not to say anything

i was gazing at his eyes
oh! they were so immense
when i found that
i was lost in them

"no. i don't want you to fulfil any of my wish."
"demand! demand what your 3 wishes are!"
"no. i don't want you to fulfil......"

genie converted into a beautiful prince
sparkling smile and twinkling eyes
his hair was gold and colour was silver
yes, he was not less than a treasure

"i had been waiting for you for years
 without you i was always in tears
 you are not a stupid girl
 you know how life can always turn

 how did you make out
 that genie was something fake
 it was a trap for people
 not with handsome fate

 yeah, you were gazing at my eyes
 did you make out me pleading
 or you understood something from my speech
 or is it like you don't have any wish "

"what you said is all correct
 these were a few things i had kept in my head
 but, something else was most portentous
 that had troubled me with great momentous

 FoOtPrInTsssSSsSs........

 i saw footprints big, small and very small
 moving towards you on and on
 but why these footprints never returned
 has now an answer very much deterred......."




AUTHOR'S NOTE:

an attempt to highlight how the world can always put some bait to engulf you. but, we all can overpower it by using our wits. the story of a fairy land, or Cinderella, or snowwhite may be good to listen and no offence against people who believe in the existence of such worlds ( hey, even i do..). here, a genie granting 3 wishes was a trap...a big trap..! the moment narrator had asked for it, it may have done something it never wanted to. the narrator's wits of observing footprints that never come and overpowering the vice of greed... that's what is the demand of poet  !!!  and yeah, it did help a beautiful prince !
“open your eyes to see the world. anybody: an enemy, an acquaintance, a friend or a well wisher...could be a disguise who offers you wishes, but, don't demand! it may take you down. ! :/ :/ :/”
:29-dec-08:with love~~isha jain~~

Wednesday, 30 May 2012

THE UNFULFILLED : dreams that don't let you dream

a flower that has taken birth today
will wither tomorrow
a beautiful butterfly will not have
those colourful wings again!
a friend no more in this universe
cannot come back in your life
the times spent and cherished
will never return to you
you were rude, you broke, howsoever you regret
but, he cannot come back to you!
you were once talented, beautiful and wannabe
but, today you aren't!


everything is transient, temporary or short lived                      
but, this is no complaint!
complaints are desires, longing, want...
complaints are dreaming, wishing, and thinking..
dreaming of things that are fulfilled
dreaming of things that may be.
dreaming of things that will never be!

there are many things that will never be fulfilled.
but, this is no complaint.
complaint is our ignorance, our timidity, our helplessness
we are weak..so weak
our eyes are weak to dream of things that are not fulfilled
we long..we aspire..we want day and night
we make plans and invite a future with our dreams fulfilled
then comes into action an active mind
" this is delusion..this is a vision..this is thought.
  this has to go off like a bubble.. "
we hear..we listen..and we react..
but what goes on are these eyes poured with dreams.

but we are stupid and helpless to dream day and night
but, this is no complaint
complaint is
tears wetting the eyes
desire burning the heart
turbulence in the mind
excruciating pain feels the soul

those eyes that once desired, once longed, once wanted something
are closed now!
those eyes don't want to see
they don't want to feel
the dreams are not flowing out,
trapped in..sucked in..engulfed in by longing.
what flows out are sorrows, blood, failure
and i don't say tears
because they don't.

but, this is no complaint.
i complain from that heart, from  those eyes, from that life
i complaint from those dreams..
dreams that are unfulfilled..
" why do you exist?
  why are you the way you are?
  your presence is not simply absence...
  absence of reality of a great fancy
  rather your existence don't let us dream...
  dream even those figments of imagination
  that can be laid with a potent of reality!
  you are the unfulfilled dreams...
  dreams: that don't let us dream!!! "


AUTHOR'S NOTE:
the poem is simply an attempt to project the helplessness and inability of a human being to fulfil his dreams. it is said that if you aspire for something, all you have to do is "perspire" . if you want anything and lighten a deep desire for the same, it may be yours. but ,is it true ? no. not always. sometimes, we all human beings are so incapable and bounded that we simply cannot. and then what lasts is only a desire, a longing, a desperateness, restlessness and an abyss vacuum that cannot be fulfilled. rather, it becomes deeper and deeper if you try fulfilling it . at this situation, the only option a person is left with is : leave yourself on the situation. and then, there comes a day when he stops dreaming.  simply abbreviated as: "you want something, you dint get and now you don't want! huh..!! funny but true.. happens!!!! "
:with love~~isha jain~~




AND THIS IS WHAT I FEEL SOMETIMES

deep within me exists a soul
a light of energy
and a  power with dazzling flame
oh! its transparent..and i cant see it.
but! yes i do see through it.                                                 
the soul makes me feel the presence of those
those that are absent.
this body is a cage for the soul
and this is what i feel sometimes
it wants to see the real beauty
but gets disillusioned by these eyes
when it trys to listen the music
i hear noise from these ears!
soul! you are in a cage
and this is what i feel sometimes.
when my soul was trying to smell the fragrance
the fragrance of love, purity and affection
my senses were smelling the fragrance of a rose
a rose bearing thorns
those eyes were appreciating the beauty of petals
petals that fold every night
they fold because they are afraid of darkness
dear soul! you can see in darkness
and you can see when the sun has set
you can smell when no flower blooms in your vicinity
ha! silly me
where could bloom a flower more vibrant and lush
than the multifarious wings of yours !!!
oh dear! you are in a cage
and this is what i feel sometimes
when my soul was attracted with his embrace
this flesh of filthy blood felt the lust of wildness
for another cage that has no soul
or may be not that divine the divine you are
dear! you are in  a cage
and this is what i feel sometimes
when my soul felt forcefully for those trees
those dancing leaves and twinkling stars
my body was busy wiping tears down these cheeks
soul! you told me to love, love and love
when my body was trying to avenge for those wounds
those scratches i got because of it getting stabbed
cage! you were stabbed at your back
but this soul was betrayed
still it loves, forgives and smiles
because it is energy with light
its fire to burn it all..it could burn its sorrows too..
but soul ! you are in  a cage



i feel pity, helpless, sorry, and restless
but u tell! how can i free you from that cage ?
because i am no other than the guard of that cage
and he (the almighty) told me to protect you under this cage!
because without it, you may be contaminated
by the indecency of evil energy
its here, there and everywhere.

but dear soul! you are in a cage
and this is what i feel sometimes

: 18/05/2012: 9.57 pm: 
: with love~~isha jain~~

DO NOT HIDE THE HIDDEN

Somewhere in those dense, dark and deep trees
Was hidden a soul
She dint  laugh, nor did she cry, nor she knew about any emotion
Seeing a woman cry about ageing
She laughed
Seeing  a  man embracing her lady
She found ridiculous
A child smiling for no reason
Never  drew her  attention
She was a soul hidden somewhere in darkness
The wide canopy over her never allowed any sun rays
To come onto her and embrace
Somebody who has seen all darkness
And no light would never know both of them
And that was her soul
Her  big foot ever walked with a pace fast
Because slowing down was not her habit
She dint speak useless
 because nobody resides
In those deep  and dark forests
To listen her endless
her soul was in peace always like always
not because she maintained harmony
but because she dint entangled with any soul ever
Somewhere in those dense, dark and deep trees
Was hidden a soul
It  was a soul powerful, energetic and dazzling
It had colours of peacock and wisdom of saints
It could sing like a nightingale
And love like chakora
Her  thirst had absorption similar to a dry land in desert
But she dint knew of all this because
Somewhere in those dense, dark and deep trees
Was hidden a soul
Her  wings were fluttering with joy and fire
Fire! Energy, power and spirit
But  who knows it was fire
Because the canopy wont allow
It wont allow for the brightness to emerge out of the forest
Her attire was  white, simple and beautiful
Her long and dense hair  spread on that white
It looked like fragrant sandal all covered with reptiles
But,  the darkness of forest never  allowed to see that white
Beauty cannot be seen unhidden from eyes
Somewhere in those dense, dark and deep trees
Was hidden a soul


But  times changed,  winds changed and so changed climate
And so came a day
when those leaves and flowers were being shed
the canopy lost its existence
and it was no more dense, dark and deep
there came quanta of sunshine falling
the forest is no more dark and its all bright
bright enough to dilate her pupils wide
imagine  what would have been with that soul in light
she saw herself white and all bright
silly! She becomes afraid in those rays of sunshine
fear,  awe, despair  and fright
but, soon she realised that she has wings
this time her fluttering wings took her on flight
her  wings help her fly
and she could because there are no trees dense                            
to obstruct her way from here to there or everywhere
she went
when she felt the colours that emerged from her soul
she realised the beauty, vibrant and Ecstasy in a flow
she was beautiful , magnificent and pure
 and she sings sweet  and to beats
 when dances  falling green leaves
sometimes that soul flys over those forests
and regrets the days of her being captivated
but soon her fluttering wings radiate aura
beautiful, magnetic, forceful and goth
she feels .. realises and smiles at present
because  a  captivating past is all that led to
a free present.

: 19/05/2012: 3.59 am: 


AUTHOR'S NOTE :
“ every human being among all of us is a species with beauty, talent, growth, charm and quality.
Each soul is divine, beautiful, ecstatic  and a fragrant rose that knows what could be emotions, love, care and affection. But,  on hiding these talents, thoughts, feelings or may be not realising them; we are captivating this beautiful soul. Come, come out! Fly and let those beautiful colours emerge ! they wont hurt any species nor will your vibes could hit that of others. Because love, freedom, colour and energy has no bounds or  any dark side. They all are different attires of beauty!
Don’t let yourself be in that cocoon. Come and emerge out! “
: with love~~Isha jain~~