And it was you!

It was a morning fresh and sweet

fragrant flowers in the street

pleasant music churning in my soul

foaming rhythmic beats to rock and roll

I took baby steps from here to there

to find from where did it emerge

and it was you!

It was sunny bright and radiant

drops of sweat rolling down the neck

from behind the dark shadows

I could see a silhouette in the green meadows

I took baby steps from here to there

to find from where did it emerge

and it was you!

A fair with lanterns glittering and sparkling

hocus pocus, fun and frolic

amidst a crowd encroaching tight

There was a hand to hold me fine

I took baby steps from here to there

to find from where did it emerge

and it was you!

A mirror reflecting so much of real me

A pinky blush and lovely smile

deep oceanic little eyes

pouted lips dry and petite

I took baby steps from here to there

to find from where did it emerge

and it was you!

Hair in a bun

and colour as Golden brown as wheat

draped in a pure white attire in pale

but still a beauty charismatic of its own

I took baby steps from here to there

to find from where did it emerge

and it was you!

Whatever i do, whatever i dont

Wherever i go, wherever i dont

There is all an ecstasy and happiness within me

around me and for me

and i know it was you! It was all you!

It was you!

It is you!

It will be you!

I miss you!

When I am awake in those chilly nights of white moon

When those rain drops pour their thirst over me

When those green leaves dance upon a pleasant melancholy

When the shadow underneath that banyan tree comes upon me

I miss you...

When I have loads and loads of work on these shoulders

When time passes and I always have not a second to count

When I forget to have the coffee lying on my study desk

When the call from my mum remains unanswered from hours

I miss you...

When I have absolutely nothing to do

When I wake up in morning to realise what for

When I sleep in the night to count my day was entirely unproductive

When my body aches since it has been resting for hours

I miss you...

When it is the day I get a call telling I am selected for the job

When it is the day my sister gives me a little nephew

When it is the day I accidentally meet a dear friend

When it is the day I see the world improving

I miss you...

When it is the day I fail in the endeavour I honestly make

When it is the day my sweet uncle passes away

When it is day I am left alone on that friend’s birthday party

When it is the day I see a poor begging

I miss you...

When it rains, I think about the day we got drenched all together.

When it is sunny, I think about the day I noticed those drops of sweat on your face, which made you look only simpler.

When I read, those lessons we shared together in library reminds me of you.

That flash on my glossy pink cell phone reminds me of your texts.

Your absence reminds me of your presence

This loneliness reminds me of your company

Friendship of every dear friend reminds me of your friendship

Every broken heart reminds me of how you broke mine.

A lot of words remind me how I spoke so much with you

A complete silence reminds me how a few things I never spoke to you

These memories remind me of you

This love reminds me of you

It grows deeper and deeper with time

I think it is craze may be

For time doesn’t heal the pain but only nourishes it

Every fibre of my being, every moment I live, the small things I do, the small things I dont do, you have lived in every thought, in every split second of this universe.

The worst thing, the more I try to forget you, the more you come upon my thoughts.

You were a cheat no doubt, but more than that you were a black magician darling!

Please take back your spell and don’t cast it upon me anymore!

Have mercy, I could take it no more

I could take it no more

I could take it no more!

<3 <3 <3

Because she still expects

With a lovely gown pink in color

She goes to a restaurant with pleasant ambience

Expecting her *man* to be in formals

She moves her eyes here and there

“Maybe it is a corner table one can’t see...

  Or may be a table reserved one can’t reach...

  Maybe he is in first-class section...

  Oh! I can’t resist to have a look...

  Darling...where are you? "

drifting here and there she finally occupies a table

the geyser of thoughts has come into action

when flashes a text on a glossy pink cell

" comng withn 10 min, catch u."

radiance of her face is still charming

pouted lips and cheeks pinky

her hair is gold and color is silver

her face has an innocence inexplicable

her eyes have depth, deeper than any ocean

her peaceful heart has violent emotions

with ecstasy lurks pain, fear and sadness

here comes a charming *boy*

a cool T white in color

a blue jeans that a gal never notices

Yeah. i like him for his simplicity

but his act indicates that it is at least not a date for him

a smiling face but

empty handed

neither flowers for the lovely lady

nor chocolates for initiating a tempting feast

“sorry, i was late... i made you wait.

  and why on a corner table...

  all alone...

  one can’t have the full view here...

  let’s go to that one... "

view is not what i want

the show off of restaurant is not what i have to see

all i want is you, you and you.

with you i am never alone

without you i am always.

you are immature. don’t u understand, baby! i love you

i miss you more than every breath i take.

i want to feel the warmth i have being with you

i want to speak, speak and speak when nobody listens but you

i want to look you, your smile, your face...

look the depth i find in you...just to be lost in it.

i want to be carried away by the wind of your love

and i don’t say breeze because it isn’t

my love for you is silent but violent..

"oh yeah, as you say".

expecting a compliment from her man

waiting for him to notice her long hair

that she untied for the first time

she not lifting her eyes to match with his

her heart still expecting for something caressing

"what will you have for the dinner?"

"you order for me. "

"yeah, surely."

"it feels so nice to dine with you, that too after a long time.

  you are my best friend. "

"no, we are each other's best friend."

"oh! so, what is your defintion of a best friend. "

darling, i have always been wanting to know you,

to sneak a peek into your mind..

whatever you say..whatever you dont..

will help me to know you better.

will help me to know your best friend better.

with you, i forget who am i

with you speaking about me, i know my part

i get the proof that i exist

i know myself as an individual.. as a girl..as a lover..

i know how witty i am though you make me go crazy sometimes..

i am that scorpio running after your shadow

in a hot and a dry desert

"its somebody who gives me a good treat on a sunday night. "

"you dumb!  no. i am not throwing any treat this time. no birthday; no job's first day;  no break-up to be cheered…no treat for you an a**hole.

you shall give me treat this time. remember, that bournville for which you didnt pay me last time. "

" what the f***! i knew this. you will never change. you still remember that bournville! and what about that bucks which i gave to that f**king  police officer to free you when you  hit that bicycle."

"bicycle! i still have that scar which i got.

  when you made me fall

  at the age of 5 and yours 7 i guess. "

both of us were laughing like idiots.

he made me laugh until my eyes were wet

and he enjoys my company more than anybody else.

you did this thing again, you prove it every time that

you are the bestest friend one can ever have..

but still it pricks me more than anything else

my heart crys with a loud silence

the friendly you are, the more i feel you distant from me..

the more you make me laugh, the more i cry for you

your growing closeness with me

is an alarm that we can never be linked

you can never think for me the way you do for her

" i told as you said, presented her with a big bouquet

  on her birthday. she loved receiving it.

  i saw that glitter in her eyes.

  probably she feels for me. "

remember the day when you gave me bouquet

i had tears in these eyes

i was so much happy and so much moved

in my dreams i had stepped on moon

i got so many but yours were special

why didnt you see those tears, darling

do i need to speak everything

why cant you read my eyes

they are passionate with love for you

they close every night with your thoughts

only to open up every morning to see you, to smell you, to cherish your being.. to feel your very being.

finishes the dinner

and he gets up in no time

my heart longing just for a few moments.

we are friends, he is not my man to love me with hours and hours

he does what is supposed to be done

i am crazy to demand what i dont deserve.

he pays the bill without letting me know.

he bids me farewell after he had dropped me home

i am reassuring him that she ll say yes within a day or two.

he punches me on my back and i am running after him to take revenge

he is a *child* and i become the same with him.

this is something which i love

being a child is an impossible task for me

i lost it the very day i found it

but he is a magician to do that within no time

but, a few things which you love

could make you cry sometimes..

cry immense and immense

and that too when it is pointless

i cry because we acting like that

snatches even the very little hope I had had

hope that a day will come

when he will be with me

the way a man is with her

 princess

it had been 3 months i remember

he engrossed in his job and me in my work

no calls, no messages, no sweet gifts being shared

when he calls me like an unpredicted shower in a desert

"are you free today? i am gonna catch you at this moment"

" yeah, that's fine. you are most welcome. "

the way a sunflower bends towards sun

same way I am  inclined for him

a few drops of water on dry land and

and it absorbs it as if they only belonged to them

same way, you are for me, honey!

i do not like your presence

i just happen to die in your absence

you  said sharp 2 pm

its 2.15

i ask: "where are you? "

within a few minutes rings the door bell

and we spend a meeting the way we ever had

it had been 4 days and i am not out of it

in front of me lays a wedding card

of him and her

what has happened that has left you bewildered

this day had to come: today, tomorrow or day after

if you cant be his

somebody has to

"and she is a nice girl to marry to

 and yeah, she is soft, innocent, weak and needs protection

 she has nobody in life but me

 she is childlike to dont understand the world

 she is a nightingale of my dreams"

his words are echoing into my ears

I feel suffocted and choking

it feels that the breath is poisened

it feels that water i drinks is drying me up

wearing makeup makes me feel ugly

i have a vacuum nobody could fill in

a friend is something i want at this stage

but what if my only friend is responsible for this pain

ops! i am sorry for the above line

he is too divine to give me pain

but for me it was too pain to love him divine

i feel that the earth has stopped its motion

because i coulnt see the sun rising

the last time i met him

it was dark

and then the sun never rose

when he left me with that wedding card

it was a full moon a few moments back

i look my face into the moon

asks from the almighty

" am i not beautifull or a face a man can never notice ?

  but he said that looks were temporary, and a beautifull heart is what he wants! "

but her heart had always been beating for others

then where did the things go wrong ?

I cried when i missed him

but, today i am not

my eyes are dry

I am silent

no turbulence, no violence, no disorder

I am quiet and smiling

but managed to bring a tear down my cheek

.

.

.

.

a few more days passed away

and finally comes the day of his wedding

he is handsome as he always had been

his bride is an angel descended down from heaven

the groom is searching for his best friend

but, the lovely lady wont come .

rings the man his best friend

“ no, i cannot pick up the call .

 i really would not be able to explain

pick up the call dammit!

may be he realised.

may be that girl ditched him.

may be he now wants me.

may be i am more pretty than she is. "

" hey. where are you?

  i am getting married in a few minutes

  wont you come dear? "

“Yeah, jus coming, on the way.”

Because she still expects.

She still expects his approval

She still expects his love.

bas kabhi kabhi

kabhi kabhi itne shabd hotey hai 
ki likhtey likhtey kam pad jatey hai
aur kabhi kabhi itney shabd hotey hai
ki meri kalam mai he theher jate hai

kabhi kabhi itna gam hota hai
ki aanson nikal jatey hai
aur kabhi kabhi itna gam hota hai 
ki yhe aankhen he sookh jati hai

kabhi kabhi itni shikaytein hoti hai
ki hum unse lad jaghadtey hai
aur kabhi itni shikaytein hoti hai
hum gehri chupi saadh lete hai

kabhi kabhi itni yaad aati thi
ki hum virha ki aag mai jaltey they
aaj itni yaad aati hai
ki hum khud se he baatein kar lete hai

kabhi kabhi sochtey they 
ki unhe apne dil ki baat btayein
aaj itna sochtey hai 
ki khud se whi baat daurhayein ya na daurhayein

khushi hoti to avsos na kartey
gam hota to shikva na kartey
kabhi kabhi gumsum rhke
bas kabhi kabhi hum yuhi socha kartey hai

kyu jeeke bhi jeene ka ahsaas nahi hia
kyu sab kuch hoke bhi adhoora sa khwab abhi hai
kyu khushi aur gam hume ek jaise he lagtey hai
kyu tere baad humre sab begane he lagtey hai

bas kabhi kabhi 
bas kabhi kabhi 
bas kabhi kabhi...

bcz i cannot love you

when i whistle in blowing wind
your lips sing a melancholy melody
when rain drops drizzle over my body
they seem sparkling on your skin

when i walk on this lonely boulevard
i feel myself along with you
when i say something to myself
i feel you listening me and embracing

oh..baby..i am you and you are me
is this love baby? or am i going insane?
please tell me it isnt'
bcz i cannot love you

the letters i wrote to you
came back to my address
the people i know since ages
starting knowing me from your name


oh..baby..i am you and you are me
is this love baby? or am i going insane?
please tell me it isnt'
bcz i cannot love you


oh..baby..i am you and you are me
is this love baby? or am i going insane?
please tell me it isnt'
bcz i cannot love you

She Made Me Stood Still

Small eyes like a speck on a wall

Nose as thin as waist of a belly dancer

Her lips were as usual as red colour of a rose

And skin tone darker than any white

Her body was sleek though

And a dressing style charming

And she was all in whites

But, still there was something attractive

About her..her attire

I tried to notice her hair..may be they were long or bronze

Cant say..as she stood facing me all the time

Me dumbstruck..my skin got bumpy

And let me remind you that I am a girl

So..i would want to know..

Know from where or what ?

 the lady radiates an aura

That is purer than a pearl

And greener  than any spring season

And then I went closer

Looked into her eyes

There laid a melancholy

Unseen or  seen but uncared..

My eyes blinked..and so they did many times

I felt as if time had dilated for a while

All I see was her..her eyes..

So small as if intentionally done 

to hide from common people

And unhide from lunatic observers

And then they started wrapping her in papers

And packing in brown cardboard boxes

And I stood still and quiet

Still Thinking hard to solve the riddle

Where..from where did the beauty emerge?

It was beautiful..i know..they say..
but ..what was it that all laid?

I felt cherishing her beauty one time

After all she was “my” creation

And then at another moment

I felt poisoned and betrayed

I filled life in her

And she..what did she do to me..

 made me still and stunned?

Its magical to admire your work sometimes

Because you know the flaws in them all the times

And still, you have to find  the beauty

Because you know somewhere it exists...

but… what , where and how much..

You just don’t know exactly…

Its exemplary to realise how ironical is the fact

The creator of beauty is the most ignorant person

About its aura, charm and effulgence

And most important about its “beauty”

By loving and being loved

When you sent me to this earth

I was crying, weeping and screaming loud

My eyes were red, moist and swollen

And voice was choked by some spirit over

The angels then came and sat by my side

and started hugging me with affection wide

bidding a farewell to one of their child

oh! the child has a heart beating with pace such high

that it may burst with silent crys

"you told me about “being human”

and appreciated the genius minds of this universe

you showed me the beauty of green nature

and talked about the feasts enjoyed by humans

your angels carried me towards my “to be home”

and showed how protective a mother’s lap was

your messenger prepared a necklace of flowers

and earrings of shells near a beach cool and large

they decorated me into a beautiful attire

and mesmerised me with dimples of sparking smiles

but, what about me..my soul ?

The apple will nourish my body.

But Where will the daemon go?

Where will it get its nourishment from?”

“dear! You haven’t  even started yet

 Still, You are thinking too much.

Look! you have already started developing human!

This! exactly..this is the magic of my creation

Go! Go with some flying colours.

Climb, dance, talk and most importantly..fly apart"

"mm...my...my soul...

if it was hungry, thirsty and incomplete

in a house of god and angels

imagine! what its plight gonna be

on a land of greedy and chahoho creatures

it will be assaulted, scratched and mercilessly sucked

and...."

"nourish..nourish it...nourish its every fibre and grain

give..give it..fathoms of energy..

and quanta of sunlight..

nourish..nourish it..and then you will fly..fly apart."

"but h...hhh...how?"

"by loving and being loved”

author's note:
many poets, writers, philosophers and other great minds of this universe have talked about the existence of a soul or some power unseen and divine residing in this dark body made up of matter. often our (entire human race..) activities encroach us..directly or indirectly. here, we criticise or express our helplessness of the human nature. our allegations and complaints even target GOD sometimes. but, remember.."moh-maya" is enjoyed by body; and so, body itself repays for it. but, we can let the sacred flame of our soul burn by the very emotion GOD incorporated in EVERY human. that is, love. and this is not love of a man and a woman. but, divine love. you could love every human around yourself and cherish their being. i say, not human even. you could love any creature. i say, not creature even. one could love some thing non-living. and then, lets think about loving some thing non-existent. then, how divine will that be? and when you love, you are being loved.  

:with love~~isha jain~~

"because what you sow is not always what you reap"

I saw my neighbour’s veranda

with a beautiful flower blooming 

a fragrance giving joy and pleasure

a feel soft and full of leisure

the petals were red and magnificent

But then there were fences

long, wretched and horny. . . .

i tried to reach
i tried to crawl
giving my last breath on and on
it hurt as it penetrated deep
tears in eyes and bleeding skin
but, all in vain..all efforts futile..
the flower is charming and magnetic
but smiling far apart from me

Give it a thought my dear me!

What if my garden also blooms
with beautys exemplary

Let us do no more wait

Time is precious and over flowing
don’t let the grains go away

Determined I was

Prepared myself up

With seeds, water, soil and a few more things

I went to my veranda on and on

Dig the soil, sow a seed and poured water more and more

Made sure it gets sunshine

To grow, bloom and bear fruits
fruits juicy and rich
giving joy, satisfaction and bliss

That day the night I slept

Was unusual in the sense I ever had had

It was excitement, curiosity and nervousness

But my optimism showed me dreams

Of fragrance, soft and red 

I woke up the next day

To add nourishment to the pot

Talked to it..shared my griefs 
and poured expectations I ever had

It still lies somewhere underneath

I cannot see, listen or even feel

What drives is an everlasting hope

That it will grow one day and bloom
as it does on my neighbour’s roof

“come on! Wake up! You cannot do this.

 Days have passed and so months..

Bear flowers and fruits..

common..I can no more resist you.”

But all what I saw

Were weeds growing

That perpetuated the more i was plucking

Too much of sunshine

Had burned a few of buds that

Once had even ever occurred

The standing water

Became a room for algae

and a beautiful flower was no where to be seen

Days passed and so did months

And then came a time when summers had come

Finished the season for magnificent roses

The seeds are dormant

and so did me

I laid in my bed

Tossing from here and there

Drops a tear down my cheeks

When comes a voice somewhere from within

“because what you sow

Is not always what you reap”

author's note:

we all have wishes, dreams, desires and everlasting hopes in life. we always aspire and want a few things to be fulfilled. some of our wishes are very practical, that is, they always have fair chances of being fulfilled; while others only rest in our figments of imagination..all through our life. whatever be the intensity of dreams, howsoever achieved or failed a person is, each one of us at every stage of life has some wish pending. and, i believe..this is not wrong. we all are humans and it is natural and legal to wish in a democratic country.

the wish of possessing a garden of blooming flowers are metaphoric to our day-to-day wishes and demands. the narrator being inspired for the same by noticing a garden on his neighbour's roof is no coincidence. you will have to agree that most of your desires are perpetuated by noticing that of others! 

the narrator trys to fulfil it by pouring water, sunshine, manure...and even talks and discusses its griefs with it. same way, we work hard, toil and put every torment to fulfil our dreams. we even travel through sleepless nights..tossing in bed..the way narrator did. but, sometimes too much of care and concern rather deteriorates the things; just the way too much of water on standing and too much of sunshine did to his garden. . . .

but then, a candle needs darkness to light. what i mean is "unfulfilled wishes" are sometimes the essence of living on. so, i don't regret for unfulfilled things. hope my readers even don't. 
:with love~isha jain~

TRAVELERS IN DESERT

A hot shining sun overhead

Its heat was at its peak

Lifted my head to catch a glimpse of it

And then there were contracted pupil

As if even they were afraid from its

 high intensity and ultraviolet

my head down not to prevent the light

but in awe, stress and disgrace

the travelers took their shirts off

most of those were in light or white

dipped them in water meagre  or none

and tied them on head  round  and tight

most of them now ressembled to those dacoits or terrorists

watched in movies or read in newspapers

over and over but never witnessed

no..I don’t say I am a fashion vista

Or a tourist eager to get clicked

But looking like a ran out from some group of mafia

Was completely out of a few girlish things I did

Unwrapped the stole round my neck

And wrapped over head and face

To the maximum I can

I saw a man taking out his clothes off

And then only a red colored boxers on and all

He tored it into pieces which were then folded

To air himself in motion ought to be repeated

My eyes fell as I had the notion

Had I been the eve before eating the apple

I checked my sling bag

For a bottle of water

It had an amount far less than for a toddler

My eyes twinkled and tongue twirled

As it was a gift in a hot and dry desert

And then A gulp of water

Through my throat

Brought  a  gaze of  eyes dark and deep

 With accompalice of a silent plea

“pretty girl! My baby is hungry

a drop of water is no less than an urgency.”

The sound was soft, slow and lovely

When interrupted words from a man dark and eyes bulging

“you are young ,growing and gay

  can sustain without water days and days

  I am  a weak and old man

 who  feels his life coming to an end”

I smacked my lips

With my tongue out

trying to lick

Even a few drops around

My mouth dint utter any words

Nor did the head lifted up

Before  the eyes had grown to refuse them

An empty water bottle is all I showed them

I was seated on a camels back

When I admired a big hump he had

I wished if I too had had

Must have stored water for months long back

I moved my head round and round

To see if any plants on soil I did found

But all I saw was sand and sand

With tiny grains blue, brown and black

Those grains shifted from here to there

 As if they  too were searching for a chill nowhere

But I wont lie if I say

That a line of dots I saw again and again

A fine level of sand all across

I Kept my eye glued over all

Only to find a scorpion underneath it

It moved on that sand

With an ease

As if a show stopper on a ramp in heels

In the task of creeping

That creature left its footprints

All alone and mind not working

Silly! You are noticing so petty things

 And then a lady touched a plant of cactus

(Huh! How offensive appears to call cactus a plant I think

For it neither gives shade nor juicy fruits to eat)

When a flow of blood started rushing out through her finger

And his husband took her finger in his mouth

Unable to guess if to calm her

Or to suck that fluid on a hot and dry desert around

The journey is hard, dry and sunny

All peace and calm

But still commotion within

Time is slipping and so are resources

All mirage and nothing could be trusted

That dark man said it all right

His life was nearing an end hot and dry

LEARN TO ACCEPT

"That dress is beautiful

Pink flowers on white

I will look like a princess

Like that of Cinderella or snowwhite”

“ sorry madam! It was the last piece we just sold.
   better if you give a look to something just more.

“I am the best  speaker

The best orator ever lived

What I will say the audience will ever be convinced”

And then is left only a longing for applause

Within no time the hall is occupied by chairs vacant

And you left all alone

“you are the bestest  friend of my life

A companion of love, amity and rise

She is as promising as fragrance from a flower

A Flower  that bears fruits which can only ripe

could you lend me some money dear?

I am afraid I don’t have any.

return you by the instalments made from my salary.”
“sorry friend! I cannot do that

 Borrowing or lending is a job

My husband always  yells at.”

“I am the beauty, I am the charm, I am a girl

No prince in this universe would ever  turn up.”

“you are a girl who is beautiful, pretty and intense

But I already have a princess to be adored up.”

“I loved that man to the breath of my life

I lived to be his and became him and had what he had had”

That man is no more in this universe

He went to the almighty high heaven above

how do I live?

How do I breathe?

How to feel my very being I have ever had?”

Her heart is suffocated and engulfed is its being.

Harboured is pain and abyss she is

“Still when I see a father and a son

Keeping hand in hand

I feel being born as an orphan

Is the ugliest thing I have ever had.”

Life is short, beautiful, intense and on going

But there are hardships, hurdles, turns and twists

People say that wounds fill with time

I say a few simply grow with time

Time becomes a nourishment to them

It’s a demon scratching every now and then

You cry, weep, scream or may be sit calm

But the only thing that suits is accept, accept, accept and accept

God is almighty

He is the strength

All set up with divine beauty and wisdom

That we human beings cant deny ever after

Accepting the final verdict is a fellow’s brain

After all anything divine can how be wrong or disgrace

For those who believe in god

Stick to the word  “divine”

Otherwise, let it be destiny, nature, waves

Or May be your sins still alive

Accept, accept, accept and accept

And that is what will cure that wound

Wounds  Of pain and agony

Dense, dark and deep sadness.

Flowers of MEMORIES

i feel sometimes how difficult it is to bind so many multifarious, vibrant, colourful and fragrant flowers of memories in a single bouquet of life. it is said that life is mortal.  *life: born to die*  but the very fibres constituting life rather develop, perpetuate, deepen and strengthen with time.  *memories: born to grow*  .it is amazing to observe how the most living and eternal essence of this universe is termed to be mortal. 

Times change and so does people

Circumstances change and so does opinion

We grow, develop and become that we never were

Life: goes on, on and on

But what rests with us with beauty, fragrance and sweetness

Are memories of ones that were dear, of ones that were near

These memories have a heart

A heart which beats for others

A heart which knows all others apart from himself

Memories are not born in the procedure of living

In fact, each memory bears  a life to live in

What I feel the same my friends did

And so lasted a group of babbling gabbling crowd

But changed interests, hobbys and lifestyle

May be mine, theirs or people everywhere

Time: ongoing , fast and speedy

You can chase it but you can never compete

And then a little conflict over ideas and thoughts

Clashes some serious comments of do’s and don'ts

And then a new crowd to sit in

A new group of people to chat

A new attire of beauty to be worn

But, what happened and what dint

Relations never die

They grow, perpetuate and develop

In a small beating heart at run

They nourish the very hunger of soul

As it has lust of only one thing on and on

Soul : it grows, develops and wants

Nothing But love, love and love

 These are memories

Dense, dark and deep

It is an attire of beauty

Clothes to my very being

They save me, teach me, make me laugh

And cry sometimes hard and hard

Howsoever sweet or bitter they were

How bad or good the people I met were

But, memories they gave are gonna be somewhere

 within me ever and forever

because these memories are

small flowers in a big bouquet of life

life: born to die

memories: born to grow

17-Jun-12: 5.39pm:

Author’s  note:
life is the most precious gift of god, he gave to you the very time you landed in this universe. He is there watching you all the time from heaven above, keeping a look on what you do, how you did and how things went wrong.  He knows how people perceived you and how you perceived them. The mirror you look yourself in daily is fake. It tells you how you look at yourself. GOD is the true mirror. He knows how others look at you. But, whatever turns and twists the life may take. You have MEMORIES. Moments are beautiful. The times you spend with friends, small fights, agreements, those hugs and hi-5s exchanged. Little trips made with family, quarrels for window seats. Those gossips that were never true and everybody knowing of it. Those linkups discussed in schools and ever knowing it wasn’t linked ever. All are memories. Crying hard on failing, a report card never rising. A few friends we were fond of, who turned out to be never promising. But, all are MEMORIES. As I say, All are different attires of beauty.

So, never mourn for some bad time you saw or cry over good time that is no more. Learn from bad and carry good things with you. Life still has many lessons to give you. Till now what happened was only a grain,A grain of memory. Awaiting are still  many flowers: flowers of memories.

With love~~isha jain~~

A DREAM THAT TAUGHT ME

It was a beautiful sight                                 

A small stream was flowing beside

On the other hand of stream

I saw a growing light beam

On a better  look to that

A blurred figure was felt

I crossed the stream

To meet that figure

And asked who you are

It replied,

“ I am strength for weak people

I am comforts for poor people

I am a beauty for ugly creations

I am a friend for every nation”

“I don’t get you, sir!

You talk a lot absurd”

“dear, my child!

 I am the world Creator.

I am GOD.”

“oh! You are that master

Who made the humans slave.

We work for you

But you don’t seem to pay”

“what do you mean?

You all are my children

I am your father

Don’t abuse the relation

By using words dreadful”

“oh! Master, if you really mean

Improve today’s prevailing scene

Food you created

But your many sons starve

Water you created

But your many daughters shower

They shower the tears

Of immense sadness

That we people today bear”

“oh! You are mistaken

If you expect all day and no night

Child! These are people like you

In the face of comforts and strength

In the face of beauty and friend

That need to bring godliness

To other people sad

I hope you got what I said

And felt my words not absurd”

Before I should have replied

That light disappeared.

I opened my eyes

It was a dream

A dream that taught me

A lesson we humans need

To let the humanity breed

Hope you get the meaning of GOD

Hope you too try to see the beam of light

That will some day surely grow inside

:02-aug-2007:

AUTHOR’S NOTE:

The world around us is full of evils, disgrace, sadness and unfulfilled desires and wishes of underprivileged.  One part of world is busy seeking for god, running into temples, mosques, churches and other places to worship GOD. On the other hand, a section of society does not have time to seek for GOD; all they are seeking is  => “a four square meal”. In other words, they have lost the belief of a mere existence of it. What we all need to do is develop a little sensitivity for the situation and realise that HE- THE ALMIGHTY exists some where within all of those who need our help and a little care. I am not expecting my readers to fill bags with lots of money and donate to a charitable centre or stop your work, leisure and comforts to live for others. All you can start up with is=> “start loving” . looking down upon somebody rather shows the state of your helplessness.  Don’t complaint! rather,  try to bring a change; A change in *yourself*!!!.

:with love~~isha jain~~

MY GIRL IN GREEN

it was a Sunday morning
a notepad and a pen in hand
i couldn't resist to walk down towards them
they are beautiful, bright and clean
every fibre rushes with green
those fields are a magic of nature
vibrant, colourful and sweet capture

no! those fields are not mine
nor do they belong to my ancestors
but  grandpa says they never had an owner

in the month of January and February                           
with lemony-vanilla fragrance
those fields bloom with winter iris aromatic 
white and lilac and deep blue
these winter flowers are multifarious

i often ask him
if he waters those fields 
or nourishes them with likable amore
his wrinkled face did only smile
his lethargic hands did only pat
his jaw with hardly any teeth noticeable
speaks:
" you are a small sapling that those plants lefts 
  whose seeds i had cultivated.
  those plants were sweet,gratifying and enchanting
  you are soft, youthful and enthralling
  darling! you are the only field i water
  baby! you are my winter iris. "

people in sixtys are arduous to be understood
but i swear for those winter iris 
their meaning is broad, deep and profound
yeah! i do not have my parents and he his children
but his and my relation is a bond more fragrant 
than these flowers sometimes dormant

drifting in these fields
is an enchantment to my soul 
i wear the transparent clothes of joy
the blood is purified with beauty
provided solace to heeding stallion
the vessels shout  with ecstasy

no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
every word i write
every thought i produce
reproduces my magnetism towards these fields                                                                                   

                                                                                    i write about chirping birds                                                      
a big group of white pigeons
they sit on my shoulders and behind winter iris 
to look more beautiful than a sun rising 
the birds sing, dance and flit
making rhythms with the music of my lips




in a group of those white birds
there is a bird with a peck black
its a bird that doesn't move in groups 
nor dances to rhythms of my flute
it flys on a music it creates of its own
it makes sound as if talking to a power divine 
i or you don't know

it seems that it is not a pigeon
but a creation of god
tied to him with smoke of love, passion and intensity
smoke that brings fragrance and rejuvenation
to an intoxicated blood flowing in veins
of a poet.. a lover..an orphan
oh! its an alter ego..

yeah! these souls are free to radiate energy                                 
more spiritful than those of dazzling flame
flame of blue with an envelope of red
on which she made food for me and my friends
those are the days when i returned home
from a school which was distant apart
then she went to that almighty heaven above
followed by his only beloved
and grandpa brought me to this small village
that have big fields to provide me deep solace

my grandpa is not less than an angel
singing sweet songs every night
that help me sleep when i cant 
because a sweet face of mother that is no more doesn't let me.
i saw her in books and so i left studies
our home echoed of her presence and so he brought me to this village
her Saree with purple frills still rests in that locker of our closet
i no more use closets to keep my clothes 
but tie them in a jute bag covered by leaves green and big
but, the pleasant songs of grandpa beats a music of zeal
shouts my soul with nourishment
when i can take a sleep at night to wake up the next morning
to write about the green colour of nature i love.

churns the music of a voice girlish
these ears are foaming and fermented
this is a voice to put me in rapture
her echoes are intoxicating rather
these eyes are searching for a glance or a glimpse
she is a fairy descended from heaven above or may be a princess


no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all i write about

writing about the beauty of rising sun                                    
the euphoria of ocean waves 
 waves producing colours vibrant and intense
loving the colours i see in a rainbow after shower
and those winter iris dancing.
and while i was penning down all these

" awww! these flowers are beautiful!
  i love all of them.
  and yeah, mama gonna them love them too
  she will look good if she gets one with her purple Saree
  and i am sure, i can take them 
  because that man is too sweet to 
  object me doing that. "

she wears a dress white in colours 
a dress for a  fashion of 70s
or a time that no one remembers
not you, i or we at least
her long gown is blending in dirt as it only belonged to it.
oh! even the  dirt on her white dress seems pure
pure with her purity..
this is the magic..of beauty..beauty of her innocence..
that only a pigeon with a black peck can see.
and her long hair are tied in a bun
this gives an impression that she intentionally did
she did this to prevent attention
silly she! a pigeon is a seeker of beauty
it knows where it emerges from
you are vibrating energy with a dazzling flame
dear! the much you try hiding the vibes you release 
the more lurks brightness with sharp intensity

yeah! you can take all of them
and do gift them to your mama 
do that! after all i can never do that
and yeah! i may talk to grandpa
after all, that man is so sweet to
object you doing that

it is said that good things doesn't lasts forever
and angels not always descend on earth 
don't know to what extent that's right
but
while i was preparing myself to speak all that
she had already disappeared

no! no! i couldn't find anything much a bliss
more amusing than this
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
and i pick my pen to write once again about those iris

when things went wrong
when my ears flute with words of loved ones gone
when my fingers cry for the gaps they have
and nobody to fill in
these fields came up to my rescue
in windy nights that were dark
these vibrating leaves made noise so loud
that under the sky with wide thunder
i never listened to sounds of gone loved ones
the fields have weeds so high that they cover me all over
and no gaps between these fingers or in heart with large void

" come dear grandson! its night
  you my catch cold instead.
  its chilly outside.
  come. i will make you sleep"

this night passes by
to bring morning fresh anew
and me here writing long
about my grandpa's fields i have always adored
mentioning about green
the tress big and canopy wide
she comes up again this time

she comes up again this time
with the same beauty, attire, innocence and magnetism divine
the only thing that changed
was her hands full of baskets
she plucks those flowers with excitement
happy, smiling and joyful
she looked more beautiful than those winter iris
dear nature! how can i write about you
dear stranger! why don't you let me to?

paper and pen lost their significance
a poet a writer became a lover
days past and so did months
my daily diary was left untouched

every time she came to those fields
she collected flowers with eyes bright and big
she bid a farewell to my grandpa
my grandpa : an honest chap
explaining that those fields are not his
but he does take care of them all times
she wished him thanks and so to me

trust me! that her twinkling eyes 
were only an illusion to beauty
because a sweet and pleasant voice she had
was a right expression for her beauty

" dear son! seeing you from long time
  you had not been writing these nights
  our mail box still has loving letters
  your readers are impatient for your work
  tell me, if you wanna join studies back
  we will go to that town left long back
  i have a friend promising and a family big and sweet
  they will look after you even when i am gone..."

" no grandpa! you are not going anywhere
  from me, this village and these fields
  you are the only one i love 
  and.."

" and? "
" that girl who comes to collect flowers daily
  doesn't let me to write for my readers."
" she is a sweet, poor and young lady.
  why don't you like her? "
" no grandpa! i like her a lot
  and that's why i cant write about things i do. "

grandpa in my life is truly an angel
or may be something more than that
if i ask from an angel for something, 
he may or may not...
but grandpa finds a solution to all problems
sain or unsaid..

she comes up next day 
with huge baskets once again
to collect those flowers that were never fresh
more than her smiling dimples ever wet

" thankyou for these Flowers. they are lovely."
" girl! have you ever read my writings, people say they like a few of them?"
" yeah! i have read all of them
  they were rich, meaningful and deep 
  only a soul feeling green could write it
  it had love, ecstasy and solace
  that only a nature lover could feel for green forests
  it feels that every grain of yours 
  has nature shouting with amour"
" what if i say that there exists a soul 
  whom i love more than green?
  it is a spirit that comes to my fields to collect flowers daily."

her eyes were sparkling
and cheeks pink
my grandpa was right in sixtys
i loved my parents and they left me
and so i loved green because it can never part me
a girl could be promising to me if i love her
the way i had been doing to green

now i move in those fields
and i see that girl in those fields
i write about that girl, the beauty, the charm
that looked more magnificent with a Saree in purple frills
and iris in her bun
she reads my books and i read mine
and i don't see any missing faces in the pages of rhyme

my mail box coming up with more letters                             
they love reading what i write 
nature is all i love
nature is all to pen 
she loves, caresses and adores me in  green
and so i do in green
after all she met me in those fields wide
truly, she is my girl
my girl in green.

: with love~~isha jain~~